Ups, Downs & Puppies

Yeah, the road gets harder
But it’s not much farther
It’s gonna be alright

You know that it ain’t easy
Please believe me
It’s gonna be alright

Please don’t worry now
It will turn around

~ More Time by Needtobreathe

So that is about how I feel. I've had an up and down day today and, overall, very sentimental. I wrote in my journal and started writing all of these memories and moments that have brought me to this point in my life. Then I started crying because it's so beautiful and so frustrating all at once...very bittersweet. I needed to cry anyway. I don't cry very often about my situation. After the doctors checked me out, I got up and rocked out to some tunes while exercising. I woke up with hot flashes and with my knee and hip joints aching really bad, so the exercise helped a little bit. They started me on a white cell booster shot today called Neupogen which can make my joints ache as well. I get one a day until my counts are good. Yay! Anyway, the good thing about crying is that I felt the need to talk to someone, so I called up my parents and my sister and my best friend growing up and had some really good conversations. I was alright by the end of it. My mom was so sweet. She called me back not even 30 minutes later to make sure I was okay still. It's always embarrassing to do the snotty-nosed, crying your eyeballs out calls...oh well :)

I really want a puppy and obviously can't have one right now, but if I could, this one would be it...



He is a pug/cockerspaniel mix and THE cutest dog EVER! I could love him forever and ever and he looks so snuggly :) I read that having a pet companion can extend a person's life by 7 years...I wouldn't mind that at all...hahaha. So, yeah, I actually do sit here and plan things for after I'm outta this place. I'm ready to move on with my life, get engaged, get married, have bambinos...all of that would make me happy and, since I have plenty of time to myself at the moment, the future is what I plan for. None of this really deters me from looking at new places to move to or what kind of new car I want to have in the near future. I think that thinking like this is what keeps me truckin' along through all of this. Every day that passes is one step forward for me.